Wednesday, August 26, 2015

Erotica Leper

Flames searing me
as your condemnation
marks me as filth,
the cruelty invoked
from memories
of repression of self
and a time when faith
meant belief in a God,
loving and benevolent,
not uncaring,
heedless of a parent's
grief and despair.
Like you, He was harsh
and callous,
demanding innocent lives
be snuffed out,
just as you feel
the creation of beauty
equates to abomination,
that the act of love
is somehow wicked.
I am outcast, unclean,
a leper in your sight.

Thursday, August 20, 2015

June 2015 CycloneWriter - @thealnasis - "Sequoia"

*Sequoia-
lord-of-the-rings
touch the face of God
forest humbled sans
half truth haiku

June 2015 CycloneWriter - @drerwallace - "Dangerous Anger"

Delicate, complex,
Yet Quick To Anger,
Wizards are best Left Alone.
The Only One meaner
than an upset wizard
is a nasty ol' crone!

June 2015 CycloneWriter - @I_BE_NUMBER_SIX - "Don't Poke the Wizard"

Once again
we are undone
by our misplaced
good intentions
that sought to regulate
and stifle the powers
of  forces
we did not understand

Laws were passed
in secret midnight sessions
under the broad umbrella
of homeland protections

Of course
the keepers
of the sacred myths
would have none of this

They rallied their army
from the bowels
of the Under Earth
and mounted 
a fierce resistance

Now we find ourselves
in a desperate war
with an enemy we created

All because
we chose to stir
the scalding cauldron
of Hell

Originally posted at stgreenie.blogspot.com 

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

Who Watches?

I don't need you
to love me,
or agree with me.
What I need
is for you
to take a stand
against an abuse
of the capacity
for our community
to police itself.

Thursday, August 13, 2015

Why I Love

I've been asked before
why I love so many?
Been told by others
that I'm addicted to love.
I can't explain
a single specific reason,
because I know for certain,
there is more than one.

First, because my earliest memories
are filled with the proof
of the inability to trust
in the permanence of love,
when the one who should have
loved me unconditionally
abandoned me, because I
wasn't self-sufficient.
Over the years since,
I've only seen it proved
time and time again.
They always leave you
in the end.

On the other hand,
I don't want anyone
to feel the way I felt.
That there is no one
who loves them.
I don't want them
to feel that a mother
is a void that yawns open
like a portal to Hell.
I don't want them to feel
that a cousin is merely
another name for a molester,
acting out teenage explorations.
I don't want them to think
that every lover
is going to leave them
because love isn't real.

I love because I believe,
how else can you be loved?
I love because I'm desperate
to find something lasting
in a world where impermanence
was my first cruel lesson learned.
I love because I cannot bear
to face life without
someone else by my side.
I love because I cannot bear
to turn someone away
like I have been
so many times before.

I love, because if I
am worthy of loving,
then so is every one
of you.
And I will never
tell someone they are not
worthy of being loved.

© Tortured Cyclone 2015

Saturday, August 8, 2015

On Stereotypes

I face a lot of stereotypes, every day. It seems like everyone has their own preconceptions about me that they form off of the basis of reading a description and statements about my interests. Very few people take the time to leaven those stereotypes with reality, or they become angry if I don't act in accordance to how they feel I should act.

This is especially sad, because this is the place where all of my masks come down. Where I am able to wholly relax and be myself. And almost everyone makes assumptions based off of one facet or another of who I am, instead of taking the time to get to know me in all my complexity.

There are not a whole lot of people out there that are:

Polyamorous
Dominant
A writer
Advocate for a parent's right to choose
Abuse cycle survivor
Against career politicians
A musician
Trained to become a Baptist minister
Believer in reincarnation
An actor
Empath/Sensitive
Pro-military
Pro-Israel
Believer in the worth of chivalry
Proponent of gender equality
Firm believer in civic responsibility
Romantic and idealist
Believer in diversity

But few bother to see more than one facet.

And that is a terrible shame...

Wednesday, August 5, 2015

Censure Indenture

Cessation of creativity,
Ending artistic expression.
Negative suppression of thought,
Stultifying freedom.
Occluding the light that
Radiates from poetic endeavor.
Savagely crushing resistance,
However it may manifest.
Imposition, by self-righteous dogma,
Preventing the soul's healing and growth.

© Tortured Cyclone 2015

Saturday, August 1, 2015

An Admission

I am human. I have topics that are red flags for me. Things that instantly offend me. Things I find it very hard to close my eyes to.

One of those things is the perception of Polyamory. I find it instantly offensive to characterize any person's lifestyle as merely a game, and it is hurtful to see someone caricature it in such a manner. This is what led to my conflict last September with a member of the Twitter community about something he characterized as a game.

This is why I was deeply offended when I found out that the same person, at the urging of several other members of the Twitter community had restarted the game. If they did not know it would offend me, it is certain that the person who had posted it before was cognizant that it would do so.

The reason this is so offensive is simply because this is not a lifestyle that is openly accepted. It is a lifestyle, that if I was outed, could lead to ostracism of my family in the offline world. For several years, I have lived a lie, for the sake of my family. So it is a very serious thing to me.

Forgive me if I view someone characterizing this as a game to be highly offensive. Forgive me if I feel hurt by not only the person who restarted the game, but the people who urged him to do so. I cannot believe that they were not aware of how insulting it is.

Forgive me that I am human enough to have a hard time ignoring it when it is on the timelines of several people I follow. I was told it was none of my business, but the game was shoved in my face last time.

It is disingenuous to say you respect someone's lifestyle and say you respect them as a person, and then deliberately do something you know will cause offense. This has damaged my opinion of all those involved.

So forgive me for being a human being.